So it's been a while since I've posted last, but I've felt like I haven't really had much to say. I'm frustrated right now with a lot of stuff.

On another note, related to a question in my last post, I think I am discovering something about myself....I NEED SOMETHING TO DO IN THE SUMMER!!! Call me crazy, but I think I just need to plan each summer to consistently do something...ballet, pilates, photography,... something I love or want to learn. I have been cycling through these feelings that I am just not content with doing nothing...but you know what, I am. I love to be by myself, I love to just sit, I love to just drive for the pleasure of driving or sit in a hammock for hours. We always talk about taking time out to be by ourselves, to reflect, to be quiet. But for me, who is more comfortable with this naturally, I need to be proactive in a different area....being around people and doing some other things that I love. I tell you, being this quiet, introverted person that I am, brings so many questions for me of, "Is it okay to be this way or am I believing lies that prohibit me from being more outgoing?" I know God is showing me who I am more and more each year I am alive and by golly, maybe by the time I'm old, I'll know just a little bit more who I am :-).

On yet another note, I just want to say how much I love to sit outside on a 80ish degree day, in the shade, with a breeze, and watch people go by. When I sit outside, I literally FEEL myself being made whole. I feel like I'm being filled back up after being on empty. I could outside for hours and doing nothing and feel content as a bird. I love it. After two years of being in this apartment, with no place to go outside except the patch of grass next to the parking lot (which I've frequented over the two years), I can't wait to have a yard!!! I am forever grateful to have been provided a home these past two years, but my soul is aching for the sun, air and songs of birds of God that makes me peacefully happy....in our own home. If you stop by our new place, you know where you'll find me :-). (Don't stop yet though, we're still 13 days away till move-in).


Until then, lots to look forward to: fireworks, peanut butter fudge, Kim's return home, Dave's return home, Jenny's return home, homemade green beans from the real Mrs. Birchfield, and hopefully so much more!

Love you all,

Andrea